It happened. I’ve been asking her to tie me up, trying to explain why I wanted that and how it might happen in a way that she would be comfortable with and yesterday, it happened.
Here is the thing: I’ve only ever done self-bondage. I’ve never been in a relationship with someone who wanted to play with bondage. I’ve never gone to a professional dominatrix. This, in spite of the fact that I was born kinky and have been curious and deeply interested in bondage my whole life.
Why?
Well, for me this is very intimate stuff. I don’t talk about my kinks with people. I probably should but I have always found it very difficult. Why not blog about it? That makes sense!
Even as kink makes its way into the mainstream as it has over the last several years, I am shy and embarrassed about it. Men aren’t supposed to be submissive or weak. Its not something you want to confess or make widely known.
So now I have finally found a woman who knows me intimately. I decided I would tell her I was kinky on day 1 of our relationship and I’ve tried to be as clear and explicit about what I like and why without scaring her away. She is not naturally kinky and wasn’t seeking a boy she could dominate sexually.
She is naturally dominant however, and she is one of the strongest people I know. I mean emotionally strong. She is extremely well grounded, confident, logical, empathetic…strong. She is independent and likes to be in control. She has opinions and a well thought point of view on most things. She likes to make decisions.
Our sex life has been hot since the first day we got together. While she is not really what I would call kinky, she likes costumes and playtime. She knows I love spandex and she lets me wear it whenever I want. I like to pretend that she is making me wear it and won’t let me take it off and she indulges. She plays with me and teases me relentlessly and sometimes denies me and sometimes not. It’s all wonderful.
Tying me up is something she has been willing to do. The first time she tried I got scared because she was pretty good at it and I had never been truly helplessly confined so I asked her to stop before she finished and that made the whole idea a bit more daunting for both of us.
We talk about it, but not much so when I bring it up I think she is not sure exactly what to do. She always agrees to tie me up in conversation but it just never really seems to happen. We get busy and its hard to find a time, it seems.
So yesterday I had the day off work. She works from home and has a lot of flexibility in her schedule. So while she was on a break I suggested she could tie me up in between calls. Just sayin’. She had some time before her next call. We happened to be in the guest room so she said, “lay down on your stomach on the bed.” As soon as she did I had a near instant erection.
She got two long scarves from the closet. She tied one around my left wrist, pretty tight, and knotted it and then tied it to my left ankle. I knew she was going to hog tie me at that point something I had asked for and I was trembling with excitement. I fantasize about a strict hog tie but for this one I was glad she left plenty of length in the scarf between my hands and feet. This way I could move around a bit but not touch my face, for example.
I was getting more and more aroused and she seemed happy about it and then I think she really understood the excitement in the idea that I would be helpless in the next room while she took her call and I would just have to wait until she returned.
She surprised me by returning right away with a pair of used panties before she even started the call. She knows I love the smell of her kitty and we play a game sometimes in which she gives me a kitty mask to put on my face and enjoy smelling.
So with my hands tied behind my back she put the kitty mask on my face with my nose in the crotch part of the panties. I bucked and writhed with excitement. The smell was divine and it was driving me into a frenzy. My cock, which we call Mr. Happy, was rock hard and I couldn’t help gyrating and rubbing myself on the bed, essentially humping it. She seemed pleased with herself and amused at my situation which made my situation so much more enjoyable!
I could hear her on the call in the next room and I knew it would be as much as :30 minutes or more. I was getting hotter and hotter and closer and closer to orgasm. Mr. Happy was throbbing and I wanted to cum so badly but I knew I should not because as soon as I cum I want to be untied. Right after I cum its quite unpleasant to be tied up and I want to be untied right away. So I knew if I came and I couldn’t get untied I’d be very uncomfortable and unhappy until she came back. So I stopped. I rolled to my side and tried to catch my breath and relax a bit but Mr. Happy was still rock hard and wanted to play so I started humping the bed again. This went on until I nearly came a couple times and had to stop. Finally, near exhausted I rolled on to my back in a position that was less strenuous and relaxed. I was in such a euphoric state I nearly fell asleep.
When I could hear she was ending her call and might come back, I had lost my erection. So I rolled over to my stomach again and started trying to hump and get it back. She came in to check on me asking “how are you doing” and I’m sure I said something like “I am in heaven”.
She said, well I have another call soon that will last an hour, do you want me to untie you?” and I said, “I can’t decide…” to which she immediately replied, “OK then you’re staying tied up” and Mr. Happy sprang back to life and then I thought, “Oh no, I’ll be near orgasm in two minutes and I’ll have to stop again.”
Mr. Happy had his own ideas about what was going to happen so I started humping the bed again and very quickly I knew I was going to cum if I didn’t stop. Too late, I was past the point of no return so I just went for it and had the most powerful orgasm I have ever had.
It took a long time before I realized I was still tied up and now it was a predicament because Mr. Happy was done and I wanted to be untied but she was only 3 minutes into her hour long call.
I caught my breath and started working on the knots and thankfully we were only using soft scarves so I was able to get it untied. When I calmed down I went to her office and let her know I had the time of my life. I was truly so grateful and I was filled with a deep sense of acceptance and love.
What an incredible experience!